Hello everynyan, its winterbreak!!
I finally realized what I want to be specialize in which is web pentesting. I think i've just building my skill in the general but I never realized how much fun building a website could be which is why I want to specialize in it. This winterbreak I have so many projects planned im very excited!
Also I was thinking, I really like collecting hobbies so when and if I get rich i'd like to start a gun collection and wine tasting. I dislike drinking and smoking but it doesnt hurt to try things. My brother wasn't able to come home for Christmas which is fine but sometimes I worry for him, he didnt seem like himself from what i've heard from my mom. Anyway Christmas is like in 2 days, we usually celebrate with lechona, congri, champurrado, and natillas and then have a game maybe if theres enough people. My aunt is also coming as well!! She raised me partly so shes like a half mother but she also made me tired of Honduran food LULZ. I cant look at another pupusa without feeling nauseous so if she cooks such a thing this christmas im running lulz. Lastly, I wont be updating this blog. I'll probably be busy for the duration of winterbreak, and so, I hope everyone has a happy holidays with their family, loved ones, or themselves.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!
I keep seeing these Roblox Devs making so much money, I kinda want to do it. I mean, its completely out of my skill set, i've only ever made scripts for linux, pentesting tools, and now websites I guess, but never anything game related. I feel like theres a billions of ways to make money online but I dont know much.
I finished up all my exams and ended my classes with 80's and 90's. Its winter break now, I need to start making projects but i'm not sure what. Maybe more pentesting tools, or getting involved in more hackathons. I keep seeing videos of 'cybersec students and homeless' compsci now CYBERSEC??? I only majored in cybersec because its my passion. I think in numerous ways it was my escapism, scripting, reverse engineering, and being part of digital rights groups in highschool was my escapism especially since I was homeschooled & lonely. I'm not very much into it like I was back then but it's still something I like looking back on and I still do keep up with somewhat though my priorities in life are elsewhere right now. Truly, I wanted to major in Latin American studies/journalism but my mom wouldn't like that. Theres many subsets in cybersec so hopefully pentesting isn't being overcrowded LULZ. I think i'm really scared of losing my passion and simply seeing it as boring work. Ill include some pictures of back then if I'm not lazy.
Expanding more on the major I wanted to be, I always thought i'd be a journalist, I even had ideas lined up, like in the region where i grew up in LATAM theres a stateless American veteran that fought in the Iraq war but he would always spout hate towards Americans, his hate is very much warranted from the stories he would tell. Or inter personal stories of my family especially since they come from a varied background. Or simply just reporting on issues in LATAM.
I feel stagnant currently. I just want to finish with school and reunite with my family in Brazil. Next semester i'll have to work 1000x harder!! I have so many dreams! but right now I feel like I am stagnant unable to do anything but simply wait for my diploma :sad:
I didn't work today nor classes, I took a day off of everything. I didn't really do anything lulz! I'm not an interesting person, im more interested than interesting. My off days consists of me learning portuguese or now esperanto, doing cardio, messing around with my linux machines, annoying my mom (or dad), or playing overwatch and if im sad I dress up as a clown THEN i end the night by practicing portuguese or now esperanto again. I dont usually go out. I would love to but I'm too much of an introvert which is why i'd rather vent on this site about it LULZ.
In regards to the site, I am currently working on the front page! I think the shrine/love section I could better and potentially add other links like book ratings, fav clowns, and maybe a page of images of myself as a clown. I only have a personal instagram with close frens so its not like many people get to see my AMAZING clown makeup.
I was pretty busy near Thanksgiving so I wasn't able to work on this page but ill talk about it anyway. It wasn't much, my family lives across 7 countries so its more like a small get together if anything. In my dreams it would be a possibility for my whole family to eat at the dinner table together! I only ate a bit of the turkey since I'm watching my figure but then i ended up eating half of the chocoflan plate :cry:
Christmas is this month. By the end of this month it'll be New Years! I started learning Esperanto and by mid to end 2025 I want to fully master Portuguese and Esperanto. Hopefully with Spanish, Portuguese, and Esperanto I can have a good start at French since it is my end goal.
